Nick surprised me in the morning with roses, a card, and my favorite, chocolate covered strawberries. He cooked me a breakfast of waffles with bananas and strawberries, sausage, bacon and toast. It was yummy and really very sweet of him to spoil me. I feel so loved and so appreciated by this man... I am blessed and know he is my strength to be the mother I am and want to be.
Scarlett had a fever of 104* so was on medication all day. She was not doing well. She slept alot and when she was awake she just sort of whimpered in my arms. It was not a great day for her, but I love being her mom and knowing I was there to help her feel better. I missed the barbeque to celebrate the day but stayed home to cuddle my little one.
I could have never imagined all the sacrifices of and all the changes that would come when I became a mother but I cant imagine my life any other way. There are days that I struggle and feel judged, or that I dont give her all the things she could ever want but I know that I love her and will try to be the best I can for her. I love watch her grow and feel so blessed that she is my daughter and know she has changed me forever.
Thank you God for Scarlett, for making me a mother which I knew what I had always wanted, for trusting in me enough to raise her and guide her, and for a partner to share all of this with.
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